Ho-Ly- SH**. You wrote this on Dec 4th!? So hold up... we basically within the same 24 hours wrote about health conditions what 🤯 now I know what you meant. And you gave me a brilliant illumination here.
I know very much what that crushing feeling is of "why don't I matter, why don't they love me, what is wrong with ME" that is the question(S) i've been asking myself my whole life -- and they become especially loud when I am in pain/sick/out of "normal" commission, meaning if I cannot run the race and be "useful" then.. I basically cease to exist.
I have had resentment in my heart over this. I never considered that there was nothing to forgive because I have perhaps been deluding myself over how much I may matter to people, especially blood family. Even if a human says you matter or they love you, that is not necessarily true.
I don't want to ramble here, just processing what you just said as I relate.
I am glad this experience has brought you closer to God, and I am glad you were blessed with true friendship along with way. I am glad I know you.
Thank you. I give thanks for this sharing of your experience here.
Ho-Ly- SH**. You wrote this on Dec 4th!? So hold up... we basically within the same 24 hours wrote about health conditions what 🤯 now I know what you meant. And you gave me a brilliant illumination here.
I know very much what that crushing feeling is of "why don't I matter, why don't they love me, what is wrong with ME" that is the question(S) i've been asking myself my whole life -- and they become especially loud when I am in pain/sick/out of "normal" commission, meaning if I cannot run the race and be "useful" then.. I basically cease to exist.
I have had resentment in my heart over this. I never considered that there was nothing to forgive because I have perhaps been deluding myself over how much I may matter to people, especially blood family. Even if a human says you matter or they love you, that is not necessarily true.
I don't want to ramble here, just processing what you just said as I relate.
I am glad this experience has brought you closer to God, and I am glad you were blessed with true friendship along with way. I am glad I know you.
Thank you. I give thanks for this sharing of your experience here.
Synchronicity.
You are loved, Don. Those who love us will be there for us - and we are set free from those who don't.
I had to look up Syringomyelia. Your intention to not invite sympathy is clear, but I still send you love and prayers. 🙏✨💜
It seems what you most gained out of your experience is a closer relationship with GOd. That is priceless! 💜🙏💜
Thank you, and yes, exactly!