Lessons

Narcissistic love

Who am I?

No one

Nothing.

A tool to be used , broken, cast aside.

A stepping stone, broken, useless, best forgotten.

i mean,

Nothing,

Loss,

A burden,

An embarrassment

Worthless.

I am only

What I give,

Provide,

Do for others,

Of myself, a human,

i am,

Of no value,

unworthy of

love,

care,

compassion,

Should i dare desire,

Anything,

Then i am selfish

greedy, lazy,

a thief because anything i could desire is wrong, and rightfully belongs only to the worthy.

my entire purpose is to be

used, broken, thrown away.

to desire love,

Is to be a curse,

A problem,

A burden.

Should i dare to love

it means nothing

to be a curse

an affliction.

I am stupid

Incompetent

Ugly

Unlovable,

I should never have lived.

in all things,

A disappointment.

I am only to be loved in front of others

Never behind doors,

I am only worthy when bringing attention to..

You,

thanks for the life lessons,

for putting me in my place,

for caring so deeply for me.

Thanks mom.

You succeeded,

Even now, those lessons play endlessly, repeating, accusing,

Condemning me for daring to desire to be

Human.

Tools cannot feel

Tools are not people,

And i am not human ,

I am only your burden that you detest.